A Furry One's Tale

Thursday, June 30, 2005

Anyone still reading?

Sheesh, been ages since an update.....

I have been hitting the job scene hard and heavy (please no snickering). What appeared to be the perfect job turned into an interview which turned into a thanks but no thanks letter of rejection. Since things at work have been less than ideal, I was emotionally knocked off my feet - it sounded like the perfect job. Oh, let's face it, I cried for a long time. I had my letter of resignation ready to go.

So back to work and back to looking. Not too many nibbles - okay so none to speak of really. I have a good strong resume and cover letter ---- just a lot of competition in the work place. Speaking of work - ugh. Some of you know I have been trying to get them to create a much needed counseling position. After years of pushing they created the position and staffed it - but they forgot to tell me. Their reasoning - the money would have been slightly less than you are making so we assumed you wouldn't be interested. My reaction was "intense" to say the least so then there were meetings regarding my "negative attitude". The last meeting they wanted me to know that it was okay with them if I wanted to design some parenting seminars on a volunteer basis while they look to see if they can find funding to put them on. (I have a sign on a mirror by my computer that says "if your face is turning blue, breathe").

So, my attitude sucks and I do a lot of job searching.

Then we move on to exhole who is once again looking for work - I guess the part about him telling them I was dead didn't save his ass like he thought.

And the kids......you know I love my children dearly but....I know why some animals eat their young.

I recently (and by accident) found out that Ryann's pseudo friend Vicki has been back up to her less than desirable behaviors. Seems Vicki created websites for herself and thought it would be fun to create ones for Ryann and Katie. She also gave them access to dating sites. The girls are 12 and 13 years of age. Being stupid, they all had full names, address, and lots of personal information as well as some provocative pictures posted for any pedophile to see. After several meetings with moms and girls (which aren't over yet because Vicki and mom are still on vacation), Ryann and Katie are grounded from the computers for life. Only Vicki can erase the websites so we are fuming and waiting. The girls (not to put all the blame on Vicki) had been regularly updating their websites with some very rude and offensive comments - no one is innocent in this mess.

Summer is here in full swing - hot and humid. Ryann and Mason are home bored to death (can we all say "poor babies" at the same time?). They don't want to go to library, they don't want to clean, they don't want to go to park, they don't want to.....call the wambulance we have some whiners.

School is going well --- because of the CBT course I am pulling an extra class each semester so more work and more intense work at this level as would be expected. The on-line counseling started then died. I need to figure out how to stroke a little life back into that.

On top of all this, I did a number on my neck and ended up in a cervical collar and a few days of drug induced la-la land. Good news is that it is feeling much much better. Bad news is I have to wear the collar to bed for a few more weeks. Good news is that I go to ortho next week....bad news is it's about the ongoing saga of my wrist. Good news is that it is workers comp (Carpel Tunnel) bad new is I don't think I can put off surgery any longer. Good news is break from work - bad new is healing time at home with children present.............ugh.

Let's see what else --- haven't lost any weight and haven't gained any weight so that's a positive considering how much I emotionally eat. Good news is that I have been walking fairly regularly bad news is that I could have lost weight if I hadn't been eating so much.

Good news - I decided to do something different and put my name and pic on match.com (on line dating). Bad news is that it has been a month and no one is interested.

Good news - I started wearing some makeup; bad new is now that I have started I cant really stop - ugh.

Good news - summer is here; bad news it is hot and sticky as hell.

Good news - kittens are healthy; bad news they wake up at 3am and wanna play pounce on the face.

Oh and Mason is still interested in band. He turned in the clarinet he had been borrowing for the last school year and brought home a baritone. DO YOU KNOW HOW LOUD A BARITONE IS? Sounds like a hippo farting or a elephant who's constipated.

But the kids all got good report cards --- Ryann pulled off a 4.0 GPA; Mason all A's and B's and even Dane had all A's and B's with only notes on behavior issues.

I did get a summer Teaching Assistant position. It's about 12 hours of work behind the scenes and one weekend morning of teaching solo. I am very excited. I am creating the presentations and test (lots of grunt work but great experience). Bad new -- it's my least favorite subject -- STATISTICS. The money is minimal.

Good news - I've been meeting Dr. xxx (very well known in the counseling fields), who asked if I wanted to do my dissertation on a topic he is working on. The idea is that when I am done we would turn it into a book. (He's already published several). I am thinking about it seriously - its about antisocials so.....well.....mmmmm.

Good news - another professor applied for a grant for a research assistant to help him write a text book. He asked me if I was interested. LIKE HELL YES!!!! It would be minimal pay and evening/weekends research but excellent for getting published.

So, I am still here. I am standing up. Who cares if the shoes I am wearing don't match. At least I am dressed and I only bang my head against a hard surface a dozen times a day instead of continuously.